If I was my twin…

If I was my twin and the other “me” was confiding in me about what was in her heart, I know what I would tell her. The answer is easy to say, but then, aren’t answers always easy to say?

But, since I’m not my twin, all I have is two voices in my head. One wants to run from pain, the other is telling me to have faith and head into the storm.

You know what totally stinks? I’m so super good at academic tests. I can whiz through them like no ones business and pass with at least a good grade (if not a fabulous one). But when it comes to God testing me, I flunk so often. I’ve never been afraid of an academic test, but I am absolutely terrified of God’s tests.

I have a natural drive in me that pushes me to do my best, to not settle for anything less. In academia, that helps me to do well. Spiritually, it means the battle is intense. I’m fighting the desire to run away from pain. But I know the consequences of even waiting to do what I know is right could hurt myself and possibly others.

I keep wishing life was easy, but no matter what, it isn’t going to be. I gotta quit wasting my time wishing. Life is hard there isn’t any changing that fact. There is a song that says “Life is hard, but God is good.”


About Melanie

My Being Purpose Statement: As a part of Christ's Bride and as one of His precious treasures whom He redeemed with His precious blood, I purpose in my heart to love and adore Him with all of my heart, soul, and mind (Matthew 22:37). I want to be beautiful in the sight of my Saviour, Jesus Christ. I will therefore pursue holiness (1 Peter 1:16) that I might worship the Lord in the beauty of holiness (1 Chronicles 16:29, Psalms 96:9) and go and proclaim His love, sacrifice and salvation to others who have not heard that I may have the beautiful feet of them that bring glad tidings of good things (Isaiah 52:7, Romans 10:15). My Life Purpose Statement: I desire to serve my Redeemer and Savior Jesus Christ throughout my entire life by ministering to girls and women. I pray that I will be able to bring many girls and women to the Cross of Christ that they may find salvation from a loving and gracious Savior. It is my heart’s desire to encourage girls and women who know the Savior to deepen their relationship with Him and to fall more and more in love with Him. I also want to serve women by assisting them in their everyday lives whether I am rolling up my sleeves to work alongside them or am connecting them with people, ministries, and or resources that will be helpful and beneficial to them. By God’s grace and power, through His Spirit, and for His glory will I endeavor to fulfill this purpose
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