“And I believe them.”

“And I believe them” was the completion of a thought I had just a little bit ago.

I pretty sure that my greatest weakness is my tendency to allow fear to control me. When I start to become afraid of something, I imagine every possible worst-case scenario. Not only do I imagine these possible situations, but I see them in vivid 3-D color. I begin to accept that they will come to pass. By then, I’m terrified and almost paralyzed by fear.

The last few weeks, I’ve begun to feel Baby Ewing move around inside of me. Not only is he/she moving, but he/she is growing too! 🙂 I have a visible baby bump now. These changes have been rather quick, or have at least seemed that way. The changes are giving me a chance to really start realizing the big change that is coming when Baby Ewing makes his/her first appearance!

That’s where the fear is coming in. I have my own worries and then well-meaning people keep telling me to enjoy my freedom while it lasts because I won’t have any after the baby. Or, that my life will be turned upside down because “It” changes everything.

When it comes right down to it, I like my life right now. So, to be told that my life will completely change is not something I want to hear. My mind equates all their well-meaning advice with the word terrible.

I’m scared because everyone says that it will be terrible…And I believe them.

And I believe them.

I’m realizing that I need to win the battles that I fight in my mind. Those last four words seem to be the crucial part of that statement. I’ve let my mind paint a picture based on a skewed picture of the future and I’ve just ran with it.

When I was in the car going grocery shopping, I heard the song “He Is” by Mark Schultz. This particular part of the song stuck out to me:

He is
He was
He always will be

Even when it feels like there is no one holding me
Be still, my soul
He is

I need to put my trust in my unchanging Savior. He won’t change even if my whole life does!

And, I don’t need to accept the visions that my mind paints for me. I need to know that yes, a major change is coming, but it won’t be terrible. This time of preparing for baby should be exciting and enjoyable.

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About Melanie

My Being Purpose Statement: As a part of Christ's Bride and as one of His precious treasures whom He redeemed with His precious blood, I purpose in my heart to love and adore Him with all of my heart, soul, and mind (Matthew 22:37). I want to be beautiful in the sight of my Saviour, Jesus Christ. I will therefore pursue holiness (1 Peter 1:16) that I might worship the Lord in the beauty of holiness (1 Chronicles 16:29, Psalms 96:9) and go and proclaim His love, sacrifice and salvation to others who have not heard that I may have the beautiful feet of them that bring glad tidings of good things (Isaiah 52:7, Romans 10:15). My Life Purpose Statement: I desire to serve my Redeemer and Savior Jesus Christ throughout my entire life by ministering to girls and women. I pray that I will be able to bring many girls and women to the Cross of Christ that they may find salvation from a loving and gracious Savior. It is my heart’s desire to encourage girls and women who know the Savior to deepen their relationship with Him and to fall more and more in love with Him. I also want to serve women by assisting them in their everyday lives whether I am rolling up my sleeves to work alongside them or am connecting them with people, ministries, and or resources that will be helpful and beneficial to them. By God’s grace and power, through His Spirit, and for His glory will I endeavor to fulfill this purpose
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One Response to “And I believe them.”

  1. LeAnn says:

    Everyone has their own stories and advice but don’t let them steal the excitement you and Luke should be feeling for one second. I was scared to death to go in and have Ashley and she was the easiet of the three. Everyone is different. I have days when my three make me want to pull my hair out and I just want to run away screaming but I wouldn’t change them or trade my time with them for anything. Yes things will be different but not bad. No matter what age they are we will wonder if we are doing everything we can for them or if we should do something different. You are beautiful and will be a wonderful mom!!! Enjoy it!

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