When I ask if you won’t be mad, what I really mean is will you still love me?
When I tell you it isn’t important, I really want to know if I am important enough to you to take the time.
When I run away, what I really want is for you to follow me.
When I try not to fight, what I really want is to tell you everything the good and the bad.
The thing is, when I write those down or think about them, they are so stupid. I feel rather manipulative. I idolize the concept of honesty and of truth! I wish I could just be truthful with people and say exactly what I wanted. I wish that I wasn’t this way. But this is my reality. All those statements end up causing one thing–loneliness. After all, who would really want something like that? I know that some people do and eventually these things might be overcome, but really? I just don’t want to do that to people. I want to have healthy relationships.
Thats all for now!