Okay, so tonight is the night of my 6 month anniversary of being married to Luke Ewing.
Wow! Where has the time gone? Okay, well, I do know that the time has just gone to the past like it normally does.
I think I’ve learned a lot in the past 6 months though. I mean, I’ve been living with Luke for the past six months and we have weathered enough of life that I had to have learned something.
However, as I sit here in bed, I can’t think of a thing particularly. This whole season has been a great season of change for me. I would kinda say that being married wasn’t the hard part; it was the responsibilities I had to take on when I moved out of my parents house and became the other half of a married couple.
As I look back on the past six months I am glad that I have had them, but I won’t lie, they have been hard and I have struggled more than it feels like I ever have in my life, but when I look back I realize one thing. The struggles are and will be worth it because I am fulfilling my calling.
You see, I do believe that I was called to marry Luke Ewing. During an IM conversation with my Mother-in-law before the wedding, we talked about some of the what ifs of marriage. Like, What if I end up lonely because Luke is emotionally distant or physically distant? And other what ifs. I remember telling her with much assurance that I was called to marry Luke and if those What ifs come true then God has a reason for it and I must keep my focus on HIM because He called me to this marriage.
Six months later, I can say that I have been tested on this. I understand so many things now. I understand why it is so important for me to have my relationship with God right! If I do not then I can only fail in my relationship with Luke.
Perhaps that is what I have learned, that I desperately need Jesus! I desperately need His grace! And I desperately need to know Who He is!
A verse that has been instrumental so far in my marriage has been James 1:17
Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.