I wrote a letter on Wednesday night and delivered it today. I wonder what’s going to become of it, I must admit. For certain, that letter may very well have a big impact on my future. I have to wonder…I’m not sure even what I really want…but I still wonder. I wonder, will the recipient take to heart what I said, and will that person change because of it? But the thing is, I wrote the letter because I did not want to change the person. I wanted to leave it in God’s hands.
But I wonder, will that recipient totally ignore what I had to say and figure to just not worry about it and let it go totally? I have to admit I get angry and hurt at that thought, for to do so would be to say with actions that that person cares not at all for me.
Yet, as I’ve always known, I cannot change that person. I don’t even want to. It’s just simply not my job. The job belongs to Someone much more capable and better than I–my Redeemer. My Redeemer redeemed me and still is changing my heart…it’s taken Him my whole life so far, who am I to think that He cannot change the heart of that other person. I suppose that is what I’ll be doing though for now…waiting…waiting on God.
Isaiah 40:31–But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
The LORD shall renew my strength as I wait. Though the way will be hard and I’ll oft be weary and exhausted with my waiting, I will wait! For the LORD is my strength and my shield. He will go before me and be my guide.
In HIM will I wait!